some day i will become a bird... a tiny little humming bird... and fly into the sun... can the humming birds fly that high?! i don't know... but i will... and i will die in the process... but i will die so happy...
people keep telling me to do things seriously... some say 'u can write a few lines, why don't u do that seriously?!' some say 'since u can paint a little, why don't u paint seriously?!' others say 'since u like playing with ur camera, why don't u take pictures seriously?!' but i simply cannot... seriousness is a concept unknown to me... is it?! well, when i work it is serious... no not really... i don't even work seriously... what do i work in?! oh something little and insignificant... doesn't really matter... but what matters is that nothing is serious... whenever i try to keep a straight "serious" face, a smile trickles out...
how are people so serious?! they discuss about life and universe with a unsmiling face... it is so scary... they even can play seriously... as if it isn't an oxymoron... when i do anything, say paint or write or take pictures, i feel free... u know, a rush of feel good hormones and a whiff of cool breeze on my face... and i am just so overwhelmed... i can't look for inner meaning and such serious stuff... i just feel it somewhere deep down... what do i feel?! "good" is a very inadequate word... all words are inadequate in fact... i feel like i am standing on the top of the world... with all the universe around me... i feel like the universe itself... and i am so happy and overwhelmed that nothing else means anything...
my heart and head mingles and all the colours and words and feelings mingle... and i am so terribly incoherent... i don't say anything through anything that i do... they are just a piece of pure joy, a tiny bit of sun-ray... even the "work" that i do... they are my children... i let them grow unfettered and unhindered... i do love them with everything in me... sometimes i feel the day when i stop loving it and feeling this way, i will just cease to live...
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